I can't sleep

I think I slept too much today... And now, here I am... doing nothing.... Someone just sent me a text and it ruined my mood. Why bother saying sorry now when all you've done for these past 5 years is nothing but to hurt me, enough for me to shed tears. I won't forgive anyone who ever cause me crying and congratulations, you topped the list. Forget about him, he can just go and get lost from my life.

I've found these few questions and it's quite interesting...

• 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

personally for me, it's the first one. I'm not that expressive about my feelings and often I found it difficult to speak out my heart.

• 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

When a stranger followed me for a few days. I still feel the same way and in case i meet him again, I swear I'll throw my shoe right at his face and confront him. Don't pick on me just because I'm a girl, scumbag.

• 3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

Is that even possible? 

• 4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I'll be afraid for sure. I won't tell anyone, I don't want to be treated differently. With my remaining days, I'll spend my time as much as possible with family and best friend. 

• 5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

Trust. Love will leave me after some times

• 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

Yes. I don't want to live a life of regret

• 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

The one I love the most. Why? Because that's what they always did, that's their job. to hurt the one that loves them the most, assuming that they will always be forgiven in the name of 'love'. 

• 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

Depends on which friend

• 9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

No. None of them is close to me. Just someone that I knew.

• 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Yes. 

• 11. Does love = sex?

No. There's much more responsibilities that come together, often forgotten by people

• 12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Honestly, no. There's other alternatives. I'll help them to look for new jobs, though... and maybe lend them some money in case they are really in need. 

• 13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

Hello, trying to forget here..

• 14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?

Do not love them back. Things will never be the same anymore.

• 15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

The hardest thing to give up? Study. It determines my career and I've planned everything.

• 16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

My housemate. I love her sooo much. She bought me chocolate milk when I was at my stress limit

• 17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?

Nothing. I love my life.

• 18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?

Someone strong and smart

• 19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

Yes, life is sacred.

• 21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

What the hell are they doing at the cliff? My grandma can barely walk. She won't leave the house

• 22. Are you old fashioned?

Proudly saying, yeah!

• 23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

I can't recall

• 24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

Never loved at all. How cruel can a person be to someone that loves him is disgusting. Re-building a life after betrayed by love is damn difficult. Been there, done that and never will fall in that thing so called 'love' anymore.

• 25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

I wish for happiness in every second of my life.