2 miserable weeks

For these past 2 weeks, there must be something written on my forehead...something like..

'Hey there, problems! Let's be friend!'

I'm so tired and extremely exhausted mentally,,,,
A lot of things happened that I feel like running away from everything... I just couldn't take it anymore but Allah keep on giving me trials the more I ask not to...

I was supposed to go back on monday but I changed my ticket last night. A crazy thing to do.. Today I skipped my class again,. I'm just too tired...

My gloomy day started last Wednesday, Nothing goes well after that. Last wed, we got our form sent to uni by my sponsor. But the thing is, my dad already downloaded everything from the website and posted it to my house in kl. Since it is stated that we must use the one that they send to uni, my dad has to do it all over again which makes me feel extremely guilty. The stamp is not cheap, it is rm10 for one form and thinking that my dad spent rm60 just for that stupid form makes me feel extremely sad. To make thing worse, I got a notice from post office that the doc that my dad sent to me was not able to be delivered and I have to go all the way to cheras which is super troublesome with all the public transports and my pack schedule.

Our community project got problem as well. Of all the sudden, after all the preparations and all the proposal that we did, they called and said that they cant accept guest until March. The problem is March is our deadline and again, we have to back to square one and think of other things that we can do for our community project.

The problem doesn't stop there. My clinical exam was terrible. Nothing to describe, just terrible.

Now that we have a new roommate, my other housemates suddenly brought up the issue of our rent. Guys, what's wrong with you? You guys knew so well that we are crushed with a lot of problems right now and we don't have money like you do. we don't go shopping every weekend like you do and we cant eat well because we don't have money. Sometimes, we don't have rice for a few days and we have to substitute our food for something else which is way cheaper. Yet, you guys still want us to pay more. The worse thing is that the one that brought up the issue is the same person that reserve a room for herself before we even step into the house and the same person that raise our rent last few months. What is wrong with you????

Just when I thought that I could enjoy myself at a homestay, the homestay is cancelled due to miscommunication with our seniors. I felt so sad and depressed. nothing goes well. I changed my ticket and just when I thought that I could go home, forget everything, and study, something bad happen again. i lost my phone. Why did u steal my phone? Handphone buruk kot. No camera, no wifi, no android whatsoever... you just make a stupid decision and now I'm the one that has to face the aftereffect. I don't have money to buy a new phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U won't understand how much I starve and now you're increasing my burden. Damn fool